Mislead

i guess i was wrong, its about that time to start all over. im ready.

once a lying bitch, always a lying bitch.

never ever trust one.

Organize and Rebuild

im now apart of your hardworking tax dollars.
average inmate upkeep is roughly $175 a day per inmate.
Court Room: Baliffs, Reporters & Secretaries are generally paid hourly.
i can tell you about 4 hours were wasted for bullshit today.
nice to know i get about $350 of taxes taken out for bullshit.
also, if you beat the fuck out of your 6 month old. wife, and run from the cops
your general sentance will be one week, informal probation and a $560 fine.
so go home and beat your kids, its all good.

also, your shitty band doesnt have a $200 a night gaurentee. you fucking pricks.
the court system is fucked in california.
YOUR TAX DOLLARS AT WORK
putting away the youth, putting me in poverty.
giving drug abusers, child and spouse abusers, and hardened criminals 2nd and 3rd chances.
ohh and, if you get a DUI

1st time: suspended liscense, $300 fine.
2nd time: suspended L's, $300 fine, 1 week in jail
3rd: "same as above"
4th: possible loss of l's, recommended felony


sooo your telling me you can get caught four times? and thats it? fuck you.
i want to organize a fucking rebellion against the world.

Tomorrow is the day

lets see if fate is in my hands, or in the hands of the beholder.
i cant fuck this up... theres so many good things going for me right now.
wish me tons of luck, i think im going to need it.
on another note, i got a hair cut today, and shaved my face. i look pretty clean . haah. i got paid the other day too, so i went to dinner, payed my leftover bills, and finally filled up my gas tank... they say livin' is a lot like dying.

i went ahead and booked an awesome show for next monday.
its kind of a birthday present to someone. if your in the area go to it!

Monday June 29th, 2009
@ The Plea For Peace Center
630 E. Weber Avenue | Stockton, CA 95204
Doors 6:30 Bands 7:00 | $5

Hear The Sirens
Living With Lions
The Swellers
Second To Last

it should be fun.

Hey Smilin' Strange

... Youre Lookin' Happily Derranged.
hearing about you kill even the smallest part of me that somewhat still feels alright about you. Im doing ok, if your ever wondering. Im actually great. I havent been this happy, but when someone reminds me of you, it can come crashing down for a brief second. Luckily ive moved on, but still theres a split second of denial, grief and hurt. Im sure youre fantastic. goodluck in life, remember.. when i leave, i leave.

i guess ive already left.

If the world caught fire, id fucking laugh

honestly, if everyone died tomorrow i wouldnt give a fuck. i hope you burn first.



- nobody fucking likes a cynic.

my take on things pt.1

Life isnt such a bad deal, actually its pretty tight. the only think that sucks, is you have to learn how to take the punches. Ive met so many people over the years, and done so many things. Ive done a good amount of bad and good things, im a crazy person. I used to get to do things most teenagers didnt get to do. Now its so common to see kids in bands, playing, touring, recording. I did that shit when i was 13 years old. I remember when i first learned how to edit video, i was so ahead of my time, now since things like that have caught up to this generation, i feel like i just blend in. Im getting older now, more wiser... i mean, i still make some mistakes, but ive learned how to be a better person. Ive carried through with a few lifelong friends, a handful at the most. Everyone else has just become another passer-by, its sad to see people come and go throughtout your life, but its inevitable, people change.

My days have been confusing, i feel bipolar. I can be having the greatest day, and one little reminder can set me off and i can be in a bad mood, skipping meals, not sleeping, etc... or vice versa, i can be having the worst day ever, and someone or something can totally turn it around. i feel like im counting down the days to my death, jail time? debt? or even worse? i dont know what to expect out of my "near" future, nor do i know where to go for help. Good help costs about $500 up from and $6,000 in the end. fun, right? decent help gets you a week to 30 days in county, plus fines. cooooool. i fucked up. i get it, but im not a bad person, even though most beg to differ.

basically all there is left to do is; sit and wait. loathe, worry, die. its not fair, but what is?

Everyone Tells Me...

.... YOUR A DEAD MAN, DANIEL CORREA.

im stuck, im so broke. i couldnt even spot you a dollar. i drink way too much, if anyone asks.. i should be a dead man by now. im suprised im even able to talk right now. im not that great of a writer (in my head i just said that to my self ass "im not that gweat of a wita" for some odd reason)... im fucking weird man, im out there. i dont do too many drugs, but id rather be on something then to deal with things sober. pathetic, right? this is my first sober night in two weeks, godamn these past two weeks went by super quick, and i dont remember a damn thing. i have nothing going for me as of right now, i just need to ride my bike a bit more, and work some more to save up some money. maybe ill get a place soon too. if anyone even reads this, dont feel sorry for me, or yourself... just take a breather; times up, we've already lost.

I Used To Be Skinny, and Happy

I really was skinny.
This past week was amazing, but i can tell this next week is going to suck. starting now. its amazing how you can go from feeling one way, so feeling a complete opposite way. i wish someone could come save me from all the worlds pain, someone to take me off my feet and just let me know everything will be alright. i miss not having responsibilities, i miss not caring. i wish i was 4 years old. i wish a semi would hit me. i wish i could start over, or end it.

Hi, How Are You?

I really dont know how i came here
i really dont know why im staying here
oh oh oh oh...

these past two weeks have been crazy. things have been so tight, everyone has been rad. Kenny and Jorge have been so tight to hang with... my band has played two fun shows that had a ridiculous amount of kids and funnesssss. The annoying things havent even gotten to me, like so other friends being flakes, and people using other people. im so used to worrying about the world, trying to save it... and i really havent given a fuck about it. i think im ready to let go of my past and finally move forward. its a nice refreshing feeling. i dont wake up wondering why i jsut didnt die in my sleep anymore, and i dont loathe in hate anymore, i have my moments, but its not a constant thing. ive meet so many new people recently, reconnected with old friends, and lost a few along the way. even though im in trouble with the cops, everything else seems to be so good. im happy. its so weird to feel like this.

i feel healthy
i feel happy
i feel alright

its definately a nice change.

Heresy, Hypocrisy, And Revenge

This song has been a major influence on my life, and how i live it... and what ive been going through for the past three years:

look at what you've left for me
Now that you've moved on
Won't pass for therapy
Just one more scar that's never gone
You tried to break me down
Time and time again
Rejection feels to scream
But I can't make a sound

It's me you tried to hide
As I hold you in my arms
As I feel your body broken
Is this just a dream?

Disappointment follows me
Its always just behind
Self-doubt bred solitude
Frustration robs me blind
No pain no part of me
I have grown numb and cold
Self-centered fantasy
Obsessed with self control

This is your worst fucking nightmare
One chance a clean break
Much more than I can take
Lies cast shadows dark things nobody knows
You've lost who's won?
My revenge has just begun
I've just begun
And I'm coming home

Constant Reminder

Today i woke up early to work, really early. 5:30 am. i hate that the sun is coming up that early, as if the day couldnt wait to suck any longer? anyways, i get up and the first thing i do is lay on the floor of my bathroom and fall asleep as the shower is running. i wake up at 6 with the windows fogged and the room feeling 100 degrees hotter (random fact, i only take hot showers, even if its 100 degrees outside). so i shower, drive to work... its already hot outside from the sun being up so damn early. get to work, set up, sell some shit, print some stuff, mingle, bullshit, and go home. i have to go back today around 3 or 4 to strike a bunch of stuff. besides working, today was an easy day. i just dont like waking up so early to do nothing. or atleast thats what my job feels like. I was in best buy today and i hear a Billy Talent song that reminds me of my freshmen year, and how we used to pack up our parents car and ride over to our friend anthony's house and jam. this was way before we start "Elaborate Hoax" the cover days, nirvana, blink, etc. the shit you learn when you first pick up a guitar. Ive been watching a lot of short films, which have always been an interest of mine, before i got really into audio production i was into video production. id like to get back into it soon, but its so fucking expesive for pointless shit. ive been working with my Final Cut Studio Pro software, its pretty cool, im still better at adobe. ive been messing around with the rotoscoping and keying, its fun. I feel better about things now, i feel like after i sort my shit out, go in on monday and fix that bullshit... i'll be able to be free for once. i would like to meet someone who can bring me forward in life, that sounds pathetic, but true. someone simple, adult like, and easy to talk to.

I want to ride my bike, but this weekend seems like its going to be crazy. Today i have to go back to work and then go to my sisters rehearsal dinner for her wedding..... then tomorrow will be a mindfuck of wedding shit. *note - i used to work for a video production company that mainly shot and edited weddings, ive seen as much weddings as a fucking divorce court judge. another note, everything has been done already, nothing new original can come out of a wedding, its all pure bullshit. hopefully my sister is chill tomorrow, i guess i can understand why its stressful.. since you pay an arm and a leg for it and its your "special" day. anwyays, that will mostly take my WHOLE day up... then on sunday Hear The Sirens has to practice then drive to fucking watsonville to play.... i like the city but the venue we play at sucks (hope they dont read this)... then monday i get fucked. so riding my bike might have to be pushed back a week. its addicting, i wish there were more fun places to ride to. whatever... im ranting now. have a good day, im having an actually alright one.

Starting Over

the funny thing is, i'll never start over. im constantly trying to better myself. im the most pessimistic motherfucker ever. im so negative towards the future and drain myself from the past. ive looked in every wrong place there is to look. im not saying my life is terrible, im just so fucking tired of the same bullshit.. it gets old when people are like "i hate this fucking city, i hate these fucking people" because its not all that shit. its genuinely me. im the one that decided to do the things i did, and how i did them. i could of left a long time ago, but my own actions have left me to stay here. i dont like to say that im going to "start over" or start with a clean slate or any other metaphorical bullshit, im just simply saying that id like to look in a new direction, start hoping for the best, stop being so damn negative. of coarse im still going to be the
Daniel Motherfucking Correa most of you have grown to know, love, or hate... but this time around im looking to start helping myself more and others in a different way. ive always spent most of my time dedicated to one person, like my own child. now theres no point for any of that. after a week long stressed-mindfucked oriented dama collapse, ive figured there's no point in waiting anymore. its about time i just get up and do something, maybe something for myself for once. im huge on helping others but this time.. im just ready to be alright. i never thought id be here like this, but who knows shit changes constantly and the world never stops turning, theres always going to be for better or for worse, its just a matter of how you handle it and yourself. i'll most likely never be positive like some, or carry around the world's biggest smile, but i'll sure as hell be there for you when you need me the most and carry you on my back all the way to the top, just like my friends have done for me. ive been to hell and back... its just time for me to take a break and fucking relax. no matter what happens, happens, letss just say for once... things might just be ok. its a new day, do something impossible.